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"There are things that we don't want to happen but have to accept, things we don't want to know but have to learn, and people we can't live without but have to let go." ~Author Unknown

Hello Everyone! I hope your holidays were great. This year Christmas didn't feel like Christmas. Our traditional thing would be to go to Tress' and celebrate at her house. But this year we went to my uncle Brian's house- we've never celebrated there before, so it didn't feel quite the same. Overall though it was a good Christmas.

I've been enjoying my Christmas break and I don't want it to end! So much to do, so little time. Yesterday I celebrated my one year anniversary with my boyfriend, Kody. We went out to eat in Stillwater. Today I was at school with my FFA advisor and a few team members working on some of our personal projects. I had a very productive day working on my State Degree. (Its the second highest degree in FFA you can hold) I just have to figure out some small details and check all my spelling then its going to be revised by another advisor of another FFA chapter over a conference I'm attending in Stevens Point January 7-8th. Then after I make more changes I send it in to our Section State officer so she can revise it and so on. To some it up, its a long process, if you couldn't tell, haha. And now I was working on my semester project for my Meteorology class. Overall it was a VERY productive day! In a bit we're going out to eat with our neighbors!

That's pretty much all I've been up too, just enjoying my Christmas break! I don't want it to end! Well I better wrap up my project, I will write soon!

Love,

Gabes

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"It's your first birthday in Heaven..."

It's your first birthday in Heaven

I know you're happy there
It just doesn't seem possible
Time has gone by so fast.

You're surrounded by those loved ones
Who left you so long ago
And you're watching over those you left
Smiling down from above.

It's your first birthday in Heaven
It doesn't feel right that this is so.
You should be here with your friends and family
Who all miss you as we do

Time stands still when realization hits
You've gone on to a better place
You're healthy and happy again...
But you're presence on Earth can never be replaced

It's your first birthday in Heaven
The first of many more yet to come
And though you're gone in body
Your spirit will forever live on.

Today will not be the same without you, the festivities haven't even begun and the tears have already been shed. Everyone will be thinking of you tonight, I hope you have a wonderful birthday in Heaven this year.

Love,

Gabes

(The picture is Tress and I at my baptism in 1994) 

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"It was then that I carried you..." -Footprints in the sand

Hello everyone! Happy birthday to me! Haha! I just thought I would post quick before I continue with my birthday festivities! I woke up earlier than I planned and shortly after I woke up the phone rang. First thought that ran through my mind is: "IT'S TRESS!" She ALWAYS called me in the morning to wish me a Happy Birthday and sing to me. I'm surely missing that phone call this morning...

I know your not supposed to cry on your birthday, but I'm fighting back the tears over that one little phone call I got every year from her. If I known last year's phone call would have been her last, I would have never hung up the phone...  :( I miss her so dearly, especially these dang holidays! Tress and I shared a special connection over them... tomorrow will not be easy at all. Hope everyone is excited to spend the holidays with their families this year, don't take anything for granted because next year someone may not be there to share it with you. 

Love, Gabes

(Tress' wedding, November 9th, 2002

Tress and I)

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"Everything happens for a reason..."

(Tress always told me this...)

Hello Everyone!

I'm currently in school right now, I have some time to kill so I thought I would post. Tonight it looks like were getting some more snow! So I'm crossing my fingers for a snow day tomorrow! (: 5-9 Inches I'm hearing! Woo-Hoo! We were supposed to have an FFA Alumni meeting tonight but it got canceled. So it looks like I'm headed home right after to school due to the weather.

The first day of break is on my birthday, December 23rd, I'm really excited! I don't have any plans made... YET. That's usually how every year goes. I don't really have that much else going on in my life as of right now. Just thinking more and more about Tress as the holidays approch us... It was always OUR special thing to celebrate our birthdays together on Christmas Eve... my birthday doesn't seem so special this year because I have no one to share it with :( But I know Tress will have a wonderful party in Heaven! She deserves it. I will post again soon, hope all is well for everyone! Off to my next class!

Love,

Gabes

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"God knows how I miss you, all the hell I've been through, just knowing no one can take your place..." -Kenny Chesney

Hello Everyone,

Its been a few days since I've posted. I finished up with all my FFA fruit this week! I'm very glad for that! I'm really looking forward to my birthday in 5 days!!! And well Christmas break of course. Our last day is the 22nd! 

Christmas this year, I'm looking forward too, so that I have no school but then I'm kinda dreading it. Its going to be REALLY hard this year without Tress. :(  Being that we always shared a cake together (Her birthday being the 24th), and we celebrated Christmas on the 24th at her house. Oh how different my life was one year ago... (I posted a picture of Tress and I last year, on Christmas eve with the blanket I made her, I have this blanket in my room now. When we first got it, it smelt like Tress, I wish it still did...)  I don't really have that much else to write. Just thought I'd post!

Love,   Gabes

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"I heard tears upon my window, heaven cried for you today."

 Hello Everyone! This is my second post on Tweetyswings. I just wanted to make it CLEAR my intentions of this blog. This blog is about MY feelings and MY feelings alone!  I'm using this blog to help me grieve, and when I grieve I get angry, and I'm sorry if you don't like what I write. But once again its MY blog and MY feelings! So if you don't like what I write don't follow it. 

This loss hasn't been easy at all. Everyone has different feelings about grieving. I myself get very angry because I was just started to accept the fact that Tress can no longer be with us. And my birthday and Christmas wouldn't be easy this year. When I heard he had moved on, it set me back. It brought me back me to the stage of anger. I'm not one who moves on quickly, it takes a long time for me to accept the fact that my aunt isn't around anymore. Loosing Tress wasn't my first lost either. I lost my grandma on February 9th, 2009 and my "extra" grandma (my uncle Larry's mom who was like my grandma) passed away on May 17th, 2009. I've been grieving since my Freshman year of high school, and I'm now a Junior. And I will grieve throughout all of high school and for the rest of my life. I hope things get better, but it will only take time. I will post again soon.

Love,

Gabes

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Hello everyone!

This is my first official post on Tweetyswings! I hope you all can follow myself and family on our journey since Tress (Tweety) has left us not so long ago!

Tonight we just went to a memorial service for all the people that have died this past year. It was nice. Especially for Tress’ sister, Twila it hasn’t been easy for her at all this year. Kevin is sadly dating again. He does have a girlfriend. He’s been dating since this summer. Just recently he went out to the cemetery with his new girlfriend. I honestly thought hearing that news was way more upsetting than the service itself!  We knew for awhile he’s been dating but we did not know about the whole cemetery thing, he’s very odd. We haven’t had the chance to empty out Tress’ house yet. It’s killing Twila. (Tress’ sister that was the closest to her) We just want to get all the things and have some closure. But Kevin said not until after the new year…

            Well enough about that! I’ve been very busy with FFA. I’m the President of my FFA Chapter. We just had our big fruit delivery today! It was –20 degrees this morning when we were unloading 15500 lbs of fruit! BRRRR! I am the second top seller of my chapter, just by a few hundred bucks! J

            My birthday is coming up, December 23^rd I turn 17! Tress’ birthday is December 24^th, it will be really hard this year. I’m not looking forward to our Christmas Eve with the family because I know they’re will be PLENTY of tears. (Kevin is not attending, thank gosh!) But, our family will get through it. We’ve been through enough these past few years. Its just the new “normal” that we need to adapt too.

            Oh what else to write about? On the back of our programs from the memorial service they’re was this neat poem.

“I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below. With tiny lights like heaven’s stars reflecting on the snow. The sight is so spectacular please wipe away your tear. For I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear But the sounds of the music can’t compare with the Christmas choir up here. For I have no words to tell you the joy their voices bring. For it’s beyond description to hear the angels sing.

I know how much you miss me I see the pain inside your heart, But I am not so far away, we really aren’t apart. So be happy for me, dear ones, you know I hold you dear. And be glad I’m spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.

I sent you each a gift from my heavenly home above. I sent you each a memory of my undying love. After all, love is a gift more precious than pure gold. It was always most important in the stories Jesus told.

Please love and keep each other, as my Father said to do. For I can’t count the blessings or love He has for each of you. So, have a Merry Christmas and wipe away your tear remember, I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year…”

I hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

Love,

Gabes